East of Tin Pan Alley
For Larry Cennamo, Commack, L.I., ca. 1965-1967
On blank staff paper, five lines parallel,
each named for letters that invoked my creed—
Every Good Boy Does Fine—I drew the circle
(whole note), filled it in: what did I need?
One stem called up a quarter note; connect
it to another, and I had an eighth.
Page after page I wrote. Could I expect
to sight-read soon? I’d struggle, take a breath,
and labor till my mother gave the word.
Mr. Cennamo, what was it you heard
each week, when I returned? My fingers blistered,
anxious, I’d hunch over my guitar,
whole body tensed after half-hours sequestered
with Mel Bay, decoding every bar.
In those first weeks, you stuck some masking tape
beside the tuning pegs, a flat drawn on,
so that, in doubt, I’d secretly look up
to see that flats meant, Play a half step down.
My mother sat nearby without a word.
Mr. Cennamo, what was it you heard?
In your split-level home, garage transformed
into your lair and warehouse, trumpets hung,
tarnished, along the wall. Unduly harmed,
a slideless trombone, old guitars unstrung
lay on the workbench. Studying the score,
plectrum in hand, painstakingly I’d play,
wishing, sometimes, I’d practiced even more,
not always sure I’d found the melody.
You sat beside me, offering some word
that gave me hope, at least. What had you heard?
Your own songs, scored by hand in India ink
straight from the Big Band age, on blank staff paper
marked and measured? “So, what do you think?”
you asked, playing us one, the strings’ cool quiver
underneath your right hand echoing.
Your black hair, going gray, was neatly trimmed.
My mother, awed, gave praise. You placed the song
back on its stack, almost as if ashamed.
Was it a tune that someone might record,
someday? You didn’t know….One day, I heard
something like music issue from my guitar—
my mother turning from the stove to listen
while I practiced. Had I come so far
in so few months? Each week, another lesson,
punished fingers, and some standard stripped
down to its basics by yourself, or Mel,
brought me a little closer as I crept
toward mediocrity—though who could tell
what more might follow if I kept my word?
“Good boy,” you said days later, when you heard.